I drove thirteen hours, through the night, to a place I’d never been, to see her for the first time. It had been a year and a half of distance and circumstance. Then the opportunity struck and I took it, no preparation, just got into my car and went. A year and a half can be a long time. So many conversations, so many chats, so many love letters. Such pining, such yearning. I felt jittery, the entire trip, electricity just under my skin. When I arrived, I called her as I parked next to her apartment building. She hadn’t slept much, but the call woke her. “I’m here,” I said. “Oh, my God!” she squealed and hung up. She didn’t emerge from the building as I’d assumed she would, so I went around the corner and looked down the street. Almost a block away, there was a woman looking in my direction and as I drifted towards her, her hands went to her mouth, covering it. “It’s you,” I said aloud, though she couldn’t have possibly heard me at that distance. “It’s you,’ I said, again, and ran. I ran to her. I ran as hard as I have ever run. She stood there, her hands over her mouth, shaking, as I reached her and threw my arms around her and scooped her up and spun her and kissed her and kissed her and kissed her.
She loves that story.
I once told her, that I thought we would always be kept apart, like a tragic Greek myth. ”One minute,” I told her, “one minute of having you, just one minute with the reality of you, would be more than what most people deserve in a lifetime”. Yet, we are together, still.
The minutes we thought we’d never have become hours, weeks, months.
In the kitchen, she’s rinsing carrots and I come up behind her to kiss her cheek and say, “I ran to you. I kept kissing your teeth, because you couldn’t stop smiling. I called you ‘my girl’, over and over,” then, feeling her back melt against my chest.
A year goes by. A year of borrowed minutes.
We are at a dinner party, I take her hand in mine. She can’t hear what I whispered, but she must know what I said, because of the way she squeezes my hand.
And another year goes past.
We’re arguing and I tell her, “I ran so hard and when I reached you, I couldn’t keep my hands off of you. I still can’t”. She smiles, then laughs and we have the best make up sex anyone has ever known.
Minutes become years.
As we pass each other in the hallway, I stop her and pull her to me. She looks up at me with a very serious expression, getting out the words, “and I waited”. Then I kiss and kiss her, calling her “my girl” a great many times.
We are lying in bed, spent, naked. We are both too tired to get up and shut off the light. I look up at the ceiling and say, “I drove thirteen hours, through the night, to a place I’d never been, to see you for the first time…”. She loves that story.